Category: Soul

I am so grateful that you exist

Barbara Bullock, M.F.A. Spiritual writer

Dear friends, orchid 2

This is for you, Anna Mae. As I arose this morning, I folded my hands in prayer. The long awaited day has finally arrived. No, it’s not Christmas; no it’s not my birthday; nor is it my graduation or other milestone of this kind. A day long awaited with anticipation for one sole reason.

This is a day many people celebrate you. Some play your music, or dress like you. Others express their appreciation in words to you or thoughts of you. Others will raise their glasses, and cheer with you, and shower you with presents and flowers, kisses and embraces. As varied as the many tokens of thankfulness and celebration might be, I bow my head in gratitude and say thank you.

I am so grateful that you exist.

I thank God for such a generous creation of you, a soul and human being so beautiful – inside and out – simply beyond imagination.  A soul and human being letting her light keep shining in the darkest moments of life. Gone through trials and tribulations in your early life, you have had to learn harsh lessons since your human existence here. Never diminished by those, you rose like a phoenix into the realm of a spiritual teacher. I could not agree with you more. I truly believe that God put you here for this very reason. It’s as if God brought an earth angel beyond comprehension in the midst of us. How could anybody have known that in little Anna Mae such an earth mother beyond our humble human awareness would emerge someday? This is why I, on this day, I pray and thank God for your existence. When I see you I see the timeless bond of unconditional love. It is the eternal bond that connects all of us like a thread, regardless of time and space. Nevertheless, I celebrate this day as my best day of the year. It’s the day when you came into existence.

I wish I could look into your eyes today and feel your wisdom, courage and love. I wish I could let you know how much I appreciate, honor and love you. I wish I could tell you what an amazing human being you are, and how much your soul and spirit enlightens the little me. As Dr. Maya Angelou said, “I would love to be with you right now but I can’t right now. So I love you”. She knew that unconditional love liberates and does not bind. So I love you. So my tribute to you is unconditional love.

So on this day, I bow my head and say thank you. I thank God for your existence. May the angels watch over you, on this day and every day, and shower you with continuous health, happiness and unconditional love.

Happy Birthday, Anna Mae.

In humble gratitude and love, Barbara

 

Copyright © 2014 by Barbara Bullock, Photo credit 2014 by Barbara Bullock

Works cited: Dr. Maya Angelou

 

You don’t have faith, you are faith

Barbara Bullock, M.F.A. Spiritual writer

Dear friends,

           Have you ever heard that you are actually a spiritual being having a human experience? What do you think this means? I think that it means that there is a part of us, somewhere deep inside of us, which connects us to the divine. I believe that that we are eternal souls that incarnate and reincarnate into our third, physical dimension to have this earthly, human experience. I believe that this inner essence of the divine is ever present in our lives and physical bodies. I believe that it enables us to have thoughts, feelings, receive divine guidance while on earth as well as to remember our divine essence which I believe is unconditional love, abundance, and faith. You might call it your soul, spirit, intuition, or higher self. Whatever you call it, just know it is there with you, right this moment. This inner form of energy is part of you. Let’s have a look at how you can connect to this part of you.

               There are many ways to connect to your own divine essence. One way is to know that you are faith. No, I don’t mean to have faith. Perhaps you are going through a rough patch of your life. Perhaps you have just lost your job, are worried about your finances, concerned about the future, praying for a loved one’s recovery, grieving someone, suffering from depression, or simply have the blues and are confused about what’s next in your life. If you asked someone for advice on what to do, perhaps that someone would tell you to have faith. I would like to tell you that you don’t have to have faith, but that you are faith. Undoubtedly, there is some sort of higher power/intelligence at work in our lives. I know that everything happens for a reason. As human beings we often don’t understand the meaning of an event or situation that has occurred in our lives. I believe that we don’t have to. But I know that we are faith.

            As spiritual beings having a human existence, I believe that all we have to do is to remember where a part of us comes from. All we have to remember is that we are a part of the divine. Wherever you seek it – outside of yourself such as in an omniscient God, or inside of you, such as in your inner self – just know it is there and you are a part of it. Whatever you might be going through right now, know that you have that inner light within you. Know that you are light and love. Know that you have the abundance, wisdom, and power to change your life. Know that you have the strength to get through whatever you are going through right now or whatever might come. You know that because you not only have these qualities in you but you are these qualities, right in this moment as a spiritual being having a human experience. The feelings you are feeling might not feel good. It is easy to lose hope and want to give up. However, do know that you don’t have to. Your feelings are just telling you that you are human. If your feelings are not good, you know that you can turn to your divine essence for the comfort and faith that you are seeking.

            This post is dedicated to all my friends, who are going through a rough patch in their lives. Know that I am always here for you. Know that you don’t have to have faith that everything is going to be all right. Know that you are faith. You are a spiritual being having an earthly existence. The divine is faith. And so are you.

Love and faith,

Barbara

Copyright © 2014 by Barbara Bullock

Have you seen my twin flame?

Barbara Bullock, M.F.A. Spiritual writer

Dear friends,

I recently experienced something which made me think about the term twin flame. I understand a twin flame as a spiritual, new age name of a soul which split into two parts at some point. Many people these days are opening up to this kind of consciousness and awareness. Since I was born I have always known that there is more than what we can see in our physical world. In recent years, I have been reading tons of books about spirituality, new age concepts as well as ancient knowledge. I find that the more I learn, the more I open up to new possibilities.

Although I have many reasons to be content and grateful in my life, I had always felt that something or someone is missing in my life. Then one day, I looked into your eyes. When our paths crossed, I felt a sense of completeness beyond my human understanding. Suddenly, in a split of a second, my longing was gone. Although a cold winter day, an inexplicable sensation of warmth overcame my physical body, my heart filled with unconditional love, and my spirit was elevated. When I looked at you, immeasurable unconditional love for you emerged from the bottom of my heart. I realized that my heart loves yours more than mine. I also realized that I love you more than there are stars in the sky. I felt at home. I knew that you would understand me. I knew that, finally, I was complete. I came to the conclusion that I would never ever have to miss anything or anyone anymore. Although I had fallen deeply in love before, I knew instantly that this was not about falling in love. This felt differently. You seemed so familiar to me. All my fears and doubts were gone. Although I did not know you as person, I felt like as if I did know you from somewhere, from sometime. All it took was looking into your beautiful eyes.

Then you left.

Ever since you left, I miss you. There is an emptiness is my heart that only you can fill. I miss you because I feel you are a part of my soul. I miss you because you are a part of me. You give me strength; you give me courage; you are the magnificence of our universe personified. You are everything I am not. You are like the phoenix that rose from her ashes shining in all her glory while I struggle like a candle in the wind barely staying alive. When I look at you, I see love, beauty and divine grace. When I look at myself, I see fears, doubts, and insecurity. Why can’t I just accept and love myself? Perhaps all my love is with you.

I recently read that twin flames can be reunited. When they meet again, it feels like a soul recognition all over again – the inexplicable warmth, the unconditional love, the realization of an eternal bond between souls. We recognize each other as if we have never been separated in the first place. Out of the depths of my deepest despair arises the greatest love of all. As I look closer, I see something familiar. No, it’s not you. It’s me. You are me and I am you. Together we are us. We are twin flames. We are one.

I also read recently, that on a soul level we are always united. I try to remember that when I miss you. And finally, after realizing this, I feel complete and loved again. By the way, looking into your eyes is the best thing that ever happened to me. I pray that we are reunited soon. My twin flame, I love you. Unconditionally. Eternally.

Love, Barb

Copyright © 2014 by Barbara Bullock