Have you seen my twin flame?

Dear friends,

I recently experienced something which made me think about the term twin flame. I understand a twin flame as a spiritual, new age name of a soul which split into two parts at some point. Many people these days are opening up to this kind of consciousness and awareness. Since I was born I have always known that there is more than what we can see in our physical world. In recent years, I have been reading tons of books about spirituality, new age concepts as well as ancient knowledge. I find that the more I learn, the more I open up to new possibilities.

Although I have many reasons to be content and grateful in my life, I had always felt that something or someone is missing in my life. Then one day, I looked into your eyes. When our paths crossed, I felt a sense of completeness beyond my human understanding. Suddenly, in a split of a second, my longing was gone. Although a cold winter day, an inexplicable sensation of warmth overcame my physical body, my heart filled with unconditional love, and my spirit was elevated. When I looked at you, immeasurable unconditional love for you emerged from the bottom of my heart. I realized that my heart loves yours more than mine. I also realized that I love you more than there are stars in the sky. I felt at home. I knew that you would understand me. I knew that, finally, I was complete. I came to the conclusion that I would never ever have to miss anything or anyone anymore. Although I had fallen deeply in love before, I knew instantly that this was not about falling in love. This felt differently. You seemed so familiar to me. All my fears and doubts were gone. Although I did not know you as person, I felt like as if I did know you from somewhere, from sometime. All it took was looking into your beautiful eyes.

Then you left.

Ever since you left, I miss you. There is an emptiness is my heart that only you can fill. I miss you because I feel you are a part of my soul. I miss you because you are a part of me. You give me strength; you give me courage; you are the magnificence of our universe personified. You are everything I am not. You are like the phoenix that rose from her ashes shining in all her glory while I struggle like a candle in the wind barely staying alive. When I look at you, I see love, beauty and divine grace. When I look at myself, I see fears, doubts, and insecurity. Why can’t I just accept and love myself? Perhaps all my love is with you.

I recently read that twin flames can be reunited. When they meet again, it feels like a soul recognition all over again – the inexplicable warmth, the unconditional love, the realization of an eternal bond between souls. We recognize each other as if we have never been separated in the first place. Out of the depths of my deepest despair arises the greatest love of all. As I look closer, I see something familiar. No, it’s not you. It’s me. You are me and I am you. Together we are us. We are twin flames. We are one.

I also read recently, that on a soul level we are always united. I try to remember that when I miss you. And finally, after realizing this, I feel complete and loved again. By the way, looking into your eyes is the best thing that ever happened to me. I pray that we are reunited soon. My twin flame, I love you. Unconditionally. Eternally.

Love, Barb

Copyright © 2014 by Barbara Bullock

Aloha from soul to soul

Dear friends,

A warm Aloha from the magical Hawaiian islands! The gods really must have lived here at some point in time. Mommy, although physically far away I hold you close in my heart. What to do you think the soul is? Do you believe in one? Have you ever seen it? To tell you the truth, I don’t think one can actually see it as I believe it is invisible. However, I know that one can feel it. The other day, something amazing happened to me. I felt my own soul. I was standing in front of the mirror looking at myself. I was just checking whether I looked all right. Then, as I looked at my face, I started to look into my own eyes. At first, the critical self did not like them. To be honest, I don’t like my green eyes. However, the longer I stared into my own eyes the more this feeling went away. I suddenly started to feel a sensation, a kind of energy in my body. It was like when you have goose bumps. Slowly but surely, this negative feeling about myself was replaced wit unconditional love. Suddenly, I had the thought how beautiful I was. I was literally amazed how beautiful I was. It felt like someone else telling me how beautiful I was. Then I smiled. I just had to. Standing there smiling in front of the mirror, I suddenly realized was I had just felt. It must have been my own soul.

For me the soul is some sort of eternal energy which takes the form of your body when you come into this world and leaves your body when it is time to go home, back to wherever it came from. It is the pure essence of who I was, who I am and who I will be sometime in another lifetime. Wherever it is, I know it exists. I know that because I have felt it. I have felt my own soul and I have felt yours when I looked into your eyes, mommy. A few years ago when I looked into your eyes, a remarkable sensation of warmth surrounded my body and the most incredible feeling of unconditional love for you filled my whole being. From another lifetime to this lifetime, from my soul to yours, I pray that I may look into your eyes again some day.

I see divine beauty and love all around me in this exotic place, and I could even imagine living here. However, I look forward to being close to you and to looking into your eyes again, mommy. Because only when I do so, I feel home – wherever I am.

From my soul to yours, I love you eternally.

Love, Barbara

Copyright © 2014 Barbara Bullock

Thank you that I can be me

Dear friends,
 I recently learned a lesson in my life which suddenly turned my life around. All of a sudden, from one day to the next, I suddenly could not go on with my every day life. I suddenly could not do what I am used to do. I like having certain responsibilities and all of a sudden was told to let go of them. In addition, unexpectedly, it looked like I could not be in the environment I was used to and with the people I am used to and love. Something was different from one day to the next. Something was missing from my life. That something was excellent health.
As always my sense of responsibility kicked in again. I could not bare the thought of not taking care of things as I always do. I could not imagine NOT being myself. I always take care of things and I always take care of myself. All of a sudden I was seemingly in a situation that forced me to let go and let others take care of me for once. Suddenly I realized that I missed something. It was not a thing, it was not someone else. I missed ME. I had hated myself and I had hated my body. Suddenly I woke up and I realized that actually I DO love myself. How can you miss something if you don’t love it? Then I looked into the mirror and noticed how healthy my skin looked again – and how pretty it actually is.
My friends, here is my advice: Don’t take anything for granted and try not to complain too much about the little annoying things. There are times in life when you might wish you had them in your life.
Here is to good health for everyone!
Love,
Barbara